Walking, weight and more walking

Tanner is WALKING!!! I started to convince myself that he would NOT be just like Kenzie and start walking at a ridiculously young age...but I was way wrong. 9 months old today! Wow, I cannot believe my little stud is becoming a little boy, the baby in him is slooowwwllly starting to fade and it makes me sad. This is the part I want to last forever, the part where he needs me and wants only me. One thing that is completely different between my two munchkins is that Kenzie has ALWAYS been Miss Independent, doesn't want or need me for anything....which kind of hurts my feelings at times but I know she loves me and she's 3. Tanner on the other hand cannot be away from me if we are in the same room. He will go play with his toys and then crawl back over to me and touch my face or arm to say "hey, I'm here mom!" It's too funny. He is textbook "mama's boy" fo reals over here.



I love my kids so much it's freaking insane. Kenzie never fails and getting my blood boiling and Tanner can annoy the shit out of me with his constant "clingy-ness" but I would not change a thing about being a mom to these kids. Some of Kenzie's recent "sayings":

• "Daddy, when I was a baby, I used to pull your beard like this...see!"
• "When I was a butterfly, I used to fly up in the sky like this...see!"
• "Oh my goodness, see, that's what Shirley Temple says!"
• "See look, I am holding up four fingers, that means I am four years old...see!"
• "See with your eyes mom, see it, with your eyes?!" (she says this when I'm not really paying attention!)
• "Peanut butter jelly sandwich with NO jelly mom"

I could go on and honestly I die laughing so many times a day at what she says I lose it all in my brain. She is one funny kid and she definitely got that from her dad, and maybe it's a lefty thing, lol! She did get her head stuck in a little wooden stool the other day and I would've taken a picture but I'm sure it would've been considered child abuse or something like that. I couldn't stop laughing the whole time I was trying to get her out and luckily Tanner was napping so I got her out pretty quick! That girl, she is a riot. Naughty most of the time, but funny as shit.

So I have been having a HORRIBLE time trying to lose all this Tanner weight. It's been miserable the last nine few months. The one plus is that I am not gaining....but I'm not losing either which is equally shitty. My life is  completely different this time around, I know, and I heard after the 2nd it's harder to drop the weight, which I am finding to be true for me. After Kenz I was wearing my pre-preg jeans within 2 weeks of her being born. This is so not the case now. We have been taking nightly walks in hope to spark some weight loss and get my fatness some motivation. I am going back to blond, which I haven't been since I was pregnant with Kenzie 4 years ago. I am halfway there, it's a lot of work to get my box-dyed brunette-ness back to a golden blond so we are doing it in steps! :) I need a change. I need to feel like myself again and not just a mom. I need my identity back!!!

 Kenz was messing around in the bathroom and smacked her eye on the TP stacker...typical!!!